I feel better. I feel less like my life is slipping away in to nothingness. I feel less stupid, I feel less, less, addicted.
I still want to go on the forums. I keep thinking up games that I could post, PMs I could send, people that I could tell that I love them.
I texted Megan for a while, but her attention span is short and you can only do a few texts back and forth before she looses interest and stops texting you. I don’t take offence to it… anymore.
The best part of my day was C block (D block was pretty amazing as well XP, I’ll talk about it later). In C Block on blue days (every other day) I usually have PE, a class that is embarrassing, my physical condition is not good enough. I am embarrassed by the way I look, and the way I act. It is painful physically, and emotionally.
But today, Mr. Whitly (my counselor) got me out of PE.
I am now in a mentoring program, in which I get to hang with and help out people with learning disabilities. We volunteer with them at places like the humane society, or at the local parks picking up trash.
I adore doing things like that. I adore helping people, and I enjoy helping my community. Doing both at the same time, is amazing.
Another great thing is that I get a full high school credit even though I swapped half way through the year. Also, they have a mandatory club, and that counts as my extracurricular club that I need to be in yearly to graduate.
I love, love, LOVE this transition and I believe that it will make me like school almost 50 times more.
In Theater (my D block on blue days) we were doing make up. Theater make up. Of course, the place to start is always bruises and blood. Scars with screws in them.
So, we spend an hour and a half coating ourselves in fake bruises and blood. It was very fun, and I am beginning to gain friends in that class 😀
Well, my family has tickets to Evil Dead the Musical tonight, but all of my local friends have parties to go to. Parties that I wasn’t invited to.
Whatever. It’s fine. I just wish that I could go tonight, I mean, I’ve already seen in once, but I wanted to show it to my dad. My parents are both going. I’m not.
I’m also not doing anything on Halloween. I will sit around and wish I had friends. I wish my parents would let me go to Portland.
I really REALLY wish they would…
Love,
Katie/Sarge/Soundy